Seeing your patients suffer from impending death amidst unbearable physical and emotional pain. Sometimes, what I wish for is a rock-hard heart that would make me numb during my patient’s struggle for life.
Hence, the title of my blog. Dedicated to every last heartbeat and breath I witnessed.
I witnessed a patient dying the other day. Knowing that there’s nothing else I/we could do was the most unpleasant feeling. Some say we [the medical staff] would eventually get used to it because dying is inevitable, that you’re going to witness more of that until you get numb. I know it would take me long to learn how to control my emotions but still remain empathic that’s why I wish for the same rock-hard heart.
